It's weird. Both my partner and I have parents who emigrated from Europe, and we've never felt fully American, but lately, I feel the need to acknowledge who I am. This country has shaped me, and I guess I'm not ready to leave until I understand it better. But maybe I'm afraid that I'll leave, and I'll never find another place that feels like home. NYC feels like home to me. Despite its problems, it's filled with a lot of smart and interesting people.